Living with depression makes it very difficult to live a positive and happy life. I know this first-hand because I fight a constant battle with it every day. I commonly get asked a lot of questions. Sometimes I can answer them and other times I can’t. Depression is a widely known topic that a lot of people suffer from. But at the same time, people who don’t have depression can’t possibly understand what it’s like to live with it. I want to bring to attention some of the questions that people have asked me, and provide my answer and explanation to each question.
Q: How can you live day to day with all the baggage you carry?
A: The answer is simple. I can’t.
Every day is a painful step and each one is worse than the last. I go to bed in the hopes that I won’t wake up the next day. When people say that life is worth living, I just shrug my shoulders. Life is nothing but some sick, twisted joke.
Q: Why do you have to be so negative all the time?
A: It’s not always something that I can control, unfortunately. I wish I could think more positively.
It’s not about being negative; it’s about fighting a constant beast inside you. I don’t want to think this way, but most times I can’t help it. Depression takes ahold of my mind and controls my thoughts. It takes too much energy to fight something so deeply rooted in my mind.
Q: How can you sleep all the time?
A: I don’t know…
Lack of motivation. Low-self-esteem. Poor eating habits. They all contribute to the need to just sleep life away. I don’t want to sleep all the time but when I spend so much time in my room, my bed looks extra comfy. Sleep gives me an escape from reality.
Q: Why are you so quiet?
A: I’m simply overthinking everything.
I’m quiet because there’s too many thoughts running through my mind that I am constantly sorting through. My quietness is due to me being stuck in my own head. Depression is mostly about thinking about the past and fearing the future. It’s hard to stay in the present moments.
Q: Why are you so antisocial?
A: I’m not.
This is one of my favorite questions. I get asked this a lot. It’s not so much that I’m antisocial, but rather that I am preoccupied with other things on my mind. It’s difficult to be social with other people when your brain is on overdrive.
Q: What’s wrong with you?
A: I have depression and anxiety. But besides that there’s nothing wrong with me.
This is another common question, but this one is rather offensive in my opinion. There’s really nothing “wrong” with me, I just have depression. Labeling is one thing that’s very harmful to those who have depression. I, personally, don’t like the use of labels.
Q: Are you suicidal?
A: No, I am not.
Not all people who have depression are suicidal. Suicidal tendencies are not in everyone who has this mental illness. Just because I am depressed, does not mean that I’m going to kill myself. Suicide and depression do go hand in hand so many people assume if you’re depressed that you will kill yourself. This isn’t the case.
Now it’s my turn to ask you something.
How do I change the way I am?
If you have depression, what kinds of questions do you get asked by the people around you? Feel free to share those questions in the comments section below.